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EDITORIAL  Stop Pretending And Admit You Don't Know BY SYAMASUNDARA DAS EDITORIAL, May 9 (VNN) — The confrontational dualities of opposing sects seems to be subsiding a little and I believe this to be a step in the right direction so in the spirit of adding to that snowball and hoping others may add weight and send it rolling down the hill of maturity and crushing those obstinate trees of fanaticism with their heavy branches of sectarian divide and deep roots of stubborn pride, I will share my thoughts gathered over the last couple of years in quiet rebellious solitude. I lost my faith, not in God but in this particular branch of divinity. The constant barrage of zealous insensitivity broke my weak and weathered heart and bewildered my truth hankering mind almost to the point of insanity. I say this not as a sentimental leach hungry for sympathy but to highlight the dangers of being overly eager to push forward the limited and conditioned conception of our gurus mission and our own polluted conception of his teachings at the expense of others faith. A heartless hand gesture, a proud and dismissive flick of the wrist and an arrogant show of faith - It's their Karma, are nothing more than a disguised attack on supersoul, actually it is veiled atheism. Someone may ask where is the shastric quote to support my view but I would say learn to think first and try to digest some of what you read or hear before using it as an extension of your ego to promote your status and prestige whilst pushing forward speculative illusory realizations meant to divide. If someone is inspired to try for bhakti and finds a person who encourages that desire why should he have to be subjected to subtle and more often blatant attacks against his chosen mentors ability, are you greater and wiser than supersoul ? If one is sincere he is directed to one who can help him and if that person is not the highest guru, Krsna still reciprocates through such a person, how anyone could dare to interfere in such a relationship I will never understand. If I am inspired to chant and follow a person and make steady progress on the path of bhakti what right does anyone else have to destroy my faith in that person? Is it better that I give up chanting and following? And if I don't think the way you think nor feel the way you feel it is no indication of my spiritual standing only a sign of your own lack of humility, if you insist I accept your point of view. I have great admiration and respect for vaisnava philosophy. It is my life saving friend but my vision and hope has been so disturbed by so called senior devotees that I have given up all prospect for this life. I have been so subtly contaminated by 'superiors' that my mind is not my own anymore and that is a very dangerous path to tread. I know all the philosophical, shastric and psychological retorts to that last sentence, beat the mind with a stick baba, karma, offence, hrdaya-daurbalya, and a million other condescending blame shifting ism's that allow others to remain in cold hearted denial, but I don't buy it. You may blame my own weakness of heart and mind but I am so much stronger than many I know so just how many really do get caught in the cross fire and how many have the ability to step outside themselves and really scrutinize the depth of this awful conditioning clinging to the vaisnava movement like a cancerous plague. And it is not an offence to open your eyes no matter how much others try to control you. I visited one website last week and there was a jubilant glorification in bold text at the death of Tamal Krsna Maharaja and thanking Krsna for this mercy, what kind of proud behaviour is this? How can anyone be so sure of his own opinion? Another site warns of the dangers of Narayana Maharaja. Just how insensitive and disrespectful are theses devotees who propigate these evil sectarian propaganda? Where is their humility? How dare they? Another criticizes iskcon, Iskcon criticizes gaudiya math and so on and so on. It is ridiculous, you are so blinded by pride in your own opinion you do not understand how immature and nonsensical you appear, no matter how advanced you may appear in your own mind or your chosen circle of admirers when it comes to the internet the whole world can see how conditioned and deluded you are. Well I could go on all day but I really can't be bothered anymore so I will just leave you with this thought 'stop pretending and admit you don't know' syamasundara@radhakrsna.co.uk Contact VNN about this story  Send this story to a friend
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